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2011-12-07T06:05:00.000-08:00

I knew some friends who are already married, if not, are getting married. I have set a mental age which I think is the right time for me to tie the knot, and that's 26. Alright, now that I wrote it, I've come to realize that it is only 2 years from now! Should I panic?

Anyway, I've listed down some pros and cons to contemplate on whether it is a good thing or I should just enjoy the benefits of being single.

Married life...

1. I have an instant yaya. Of course, my husband to be is responsible of taking care of me and my future kids. Although I think, in reality it is the other way around. Wife usually do the house chores and all of the 'losyang' stuff. But remember, husband should have the initiative to help around the house.

2. I have a partner for life. Do I need to expound on this?

3. Monetary concerns. I do not have to shoulder everything! The electricity bills, water bills, family budget etc.. Isn't it fun computing every cents you have to keep and spend with your partner? (I think I'm the only one who sees fun on this)

4. Inspiration. We all know this. Every married/ single couples know this. Once married, it is the priority of the couple to ensure a good life for their family.In that case, couple should have to depend and inspire each other to do so.

5. I have a best friend, boyfriend, husband rolled into one. It's a package for life!

Now that I mentioned my top 5 pros why getting married is a good thing, Here's the cons:

No no no to married life (at this moment)

1. No more party night! Or limited chance of going out and have fun with friends.

2. No chance of meeting new people/ men. This is a sensitive issue. Let me elaborate on this one.One still has a chance of meeting new people of course, but, flirting is not allowed anymore. More of a professional approach should be applied.

Hmmm.. I have to think of more reasons why NO TO MARRIED LIFE YET. But so far that would be all. If you are reading this, can you add some more to both?

Steps

2011-10-15T23:07:00.000-07:00

My shoe collection!

I'm a sucker for high heels :">

Once I have my camera back I'll post my other shoe collection. For the mean time, please bear with my low quality pictures :)

Just got 'em yesterday from Forever 21!

I know they're not high heels but still... They're nice though. I need flats for my 'harabas' activities

Forever 21 again. I'm starting to be a fan of this store :">

I think they're 4 inches tall? or taller?

The Best of Anime

2011-09-20T02:03:00.000-07:00

It's not everyday you'll see your childhood memories turn into reality. For instance, last Saturday, me and a good friend of mine attended and participated on our first time cosplaying event. Honestly, I used to find cosplayers "weird", but after joining and be a participant myself? I changed my perspective :D

Enjoy the photos! ^^

Naruto!

dunno her, but she's cute^^

Yey! Bumblebee!

Yep! Harry was there!

Whoa!

I think they're the coolest^^

Yep that's me. Cosplaying Misa Amane of Deathnote^^

and my friend as Mio of K -On

Us^^

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2011-09-13T00:42:00.000-07:00

It's been 2 months since I last updated my blog. Well, I haven't got much to say, aside from the fact that I've been very busy doing acad works. I can't believe that 1st semester is almost over! I pray that I'll be able to pass through this semester and can still enroll on November. Haha. Anyway, I have fun doing some other stuff despite of my busy schedule. I've been doing some 'amateur' photo shoots just this last week which I will be using for my research. I think it went well, though, it's just that, it is really obvious that the photos are taken by an amateur photographer. Oh well, who cares? Every photographers started from it. I hope I'll improve and be a good, or if not, not the best in the future. I'll be posting some pictures when I've time. I'll be signing out for the mean time since it's already 3:30 and I better be preparing to depart for my class. Ciao!

2011-07-10T20:48:00.000-07:00

She's Always A Woman
Billy Joel

She can kill with a smile
She can wound with her eyes
She can ruin your faith with her casual lies
And she only reveals what she wants you to see
She hides like a child,
But she's always a woman to me

She can lead you to love
She can take you or leave you
She can ask for the truth
But she'll never believe you
And she'll take what you give her, as long as it's free
Yeah, she steals like a thief
But she's always a woman to me

CHORUS:
Oh--she takes care of herself
She can wait if she wants
She's ahead of her time
Oh--and she never gives out
And she never gives in
She just changes her mind

And she'll promise you more
Than the Garden of Eden
Then she'll carelessly cut you
And laugh while you're bleedin'
But she'll bring out the best
And the worst you can be
Blame it all on yourself
Cause she's always a woman to me
--Mhmm--

Bridge

CHORUS:
Oh--she takes care of herself
She can wait if she wants
She's ahead of her time
Oh--and she never gives out
And she never gives in
She just changes her mind

She is frequently kind
And she's suddenly cruel
She can do as she pleases
She's nobody's fool
And she can't be convicted
She's earned her degree
And the most she will do
Is throw shadows at you
But she's always a woman to me
--Mhmm--

I always wanted to have someone who will sing this to me *sighs*

Reminiscing before I sleep

2011-07-04T07:04:00.000-07:00

I was browsing through some old files when I've stumbled upon some last year's birthday pictures. I had this weird butterfly feeling in my stomach when memories came rushing in to my mind. It's really a bizarre yet happy feeling. I remember that time when we were still at getting to know stage. That day when I was soooo literally so "kilig" when I saw him coming into our house and to have celebrated that special day with him. In two months, we will be celebrating our 1st year anniversary. Time flies so fast. I never would have imagined that despite our endless quarrels and non stop arguments we are still here, together as one and soon to be celebrating our one year of being in love. I hope we could share more good years and end up marrying each other someday.

I love you much!

He looks so shy type here haha

Sorry Ja but I have to crop you :D

Yep, that classic blowing of the candles, yet this time it's different, I have him to hold the cake :)

2011-06-12T22:45:00.000-07:00

June 13, 2011
1:45pm

I have been going out for quite a while now. Hanging out with my bf's friends and stuff. Well, it's quite fun, aside from being up all night and not having enough sleep, the reason zits are all over my face again! As in invading every remaining space on my usual spotless skin, and eyebags as well. I'm having a hard time keeping my skin clear, and I have been neglecting my health from indulging too much alcohol. Seriously, I have to watch out for my health :|

Anyway, I really don't understand why do I always have this weird feeling of getting annoyed whenever my boyfriend tells me they're having a boys night out. Yeah I met few of his guys friends and I really got well along with them and everything seems to be fine, but, I really don't like the idea of 'boys night out'. So immature 'eh? Just today he told me they're going to hang out again, and of course, I have this weird feeling that I don't want to talk to him to make him feel I am missed. Arrghh this is really weird.. I am really weird.

2011-06-07T21:19:00.000-07:00

June 08, 2011

12:17 nn

For the One I Love

Love isn’t perfect.

No matter what angles you try to see it.

Love isn’t for everyone.

Especially to those with closed doors.

Love isn’t forever.

Or so they say.

Love isn’t always present.

Take a look at the world, you’ll know.

Love is a waste of time.

The end is near, who cares about it?

Love is a fallacy.

Only fairy tales have happy endings.

That’s how a fool defines love.

Mine’s simple.

Love is perfect.

You try to see it in every angles possible.

Love is for everyone.

Especially to those who believe in it.

Love is forever.

May be it in heaven or in hell.

Love is always around.

That’s what makes the world go round.

Love is everything.

It makes all things promising.

Love is a reality.

Because I love you and this is the real thing.

Happy Birthday!

First Day High

2011-06-07T18:57:00.000-07:00

June 08, 2011
10:00am

Yesterday's my first day in the UST Graduate School. I survived! Not only the professor's cool, the subject itself is also interesting. I took up Communication Research during my undergraduate course yet admittedly, I don't think I learned a lot on the subject. It could be the lack of interest on my part during that time. But this time is different. There is a lot to expect from me starting now. I chose this path not only because I want to excel in my career, I want to prove something. I want to grow. I just don't want to end having only a bachelor degree. There's nothing with dreaming big, right?

During the discussion, I came to realize that I'm not really good into divulging ideas in a group discussion. I have to work on this one. I'm going to have the major adjustment on my study habits and improvement on my conversation skills, and forget not my writing ability. I'm not good in writing! There' a lot to improve oooh my >.<

Our professor had given us our first homework and that is to comment on his article about education. I will be posting here my answer on his article soon :)

Honestly, the fact that I am already in a graduate school, aiming to achieve a masteral degree, is still a new world to me. It's really different. Very different out there. My classmates, who are all professionals and even some are taking Ph. d's, I feel like I am the most underdog inside our class. I'm really trying to be competitive so I can prove that I fit in in that class, that I am deserving to have a Masteral Degree, and that one day I will achieve my dream of becoming a successful career woman. I dreamed of obtaining the title of 'Nelly Rose A. Abdon, Ph.d'. Ambitious? I'm not. Just trying to be optimistic.

It is still a long way to go from where I currently am right now, but time flies fast, and with every waking day, I know the day I'll be walking down the isle of the graduation hall and hear the graduation bells ringing, will be close from far.

Crab

2011-05-11T19:56:00.000-07:00

I just want to study. I guess there's nothing wrong with that. I don't understand why some people are so inconsiderate. Instead of being supportive to their subordinates, they are the people who will pull you down. Instead of helping you build your career, yourself, your character, they are the ones who will discourage you with your plans.You asked them for a little favor, a little of their time, but they can't spare you that. Why do such people exist? Haaaay..... Burden burden burden. It's so depressing 'coz you know there's nothing you can do. I'm so hopeless right now... :(

2011-05-09T23:42:00.000-07:00

Currently at the office right now feeling I'm about to doze off any minute. My mind isn't working right now and no matter how hard I try to think of something interesting to write in this blog.. Nah i don't have any! How do I fight sleepiness? Oh yes. Coffee. Ciao for now!

cuts like a knife

2011-05-07T09:17:00.000-07:00

May 7, 2011
12:16am

Since the day I started to love you, all I wished is just to have a happy relationship. I did not asked for a perfect lover nor a perfect relationship, as long as there's "us". I braced the fact that fights and misunderstandings are always present in a relationship and that's the reason why I hold on to ours. Yes we fight from time to time, we overrule each other and even dominate each other, yet we're still here as a whole. In 8 months being in this relationship, I'm loving you more, and it grows more and more everyday.

But this isn't a love story I'm narrating here.

I promised myself to change after being dumped from my past relationship. And I'm quite proud that at least I was able to change some negative traits I used to have. I learned to be humble, accept my mistakes, and control my irrational jealousies. But one thing remained, my over sensitivity. It's quite understandable because your words are to much to bear. You always misunderstood my words. Instead of apologizing, or be humble enough to admit a certain thing, you always twist it the other way around and make it look like it is my fault. And you always make it to the point to say things that will offend me. If it is done purposely I don't know. But I want you to realize that you are hurting me. I've done things for you that I have never done before yet I feel those are not appreciated, 'coz if it does, you won't even think of hurting my feelings. I love you. But for every time we are faced in this kind of conflict I was thinking, it's better off to stay single. You are hurting my pride, my ego, my morale, everything. Good thing God did not made our words a sharp weapon 'coz if he does, I am physically battered by now after being slashed several times by your words. I've asked you so many times why do you have to be so dismissive with your words whenever we have a misunderstanding? I don't remember being rude to you. I always try to be careful with my words whenever we fight because I don't want to hurt your feelings, but you? Did you ever consider mine? You are harsh. And by the time you are reading this I know it will create another issue about me looking for your every flaws. I'm not perfect, and so do you, yet why can't we work it out? Damn... I'm so pissed off with you!

You are not the ideal man I dreamed of. But I love you enough to overlook the standards I have for a relationship. If you love me enough, then be a man and stop hurting my feelings. You made a crying baby for crying out loud. I love you so much that it hurts me whenever we fight. Have you felt this? I think not. Does it only proves men are insensitive? I hate to think that one day I will realize you're not worth my tears anymore... I know you're not into this kind of stuff. You're not interested browsing in to some things I have my interest on so it will be impossible for you to stumble here on a purpose, but if by chance you are able to find this, I hope it's not too late.

As of today, I still love you, and I'm sure I still love you tomorrow. But the next days, months, I don't know, years? I'm uncertain.

Haaaay... Mahal na mahal kita Michael kung alam mo lang. Wag mo na sana kong saktan sa mga salita mo.