09:24pm
Jan. 31, 2009

*An almost perfect day. Not that it's a bad day. Close to that, maybe. So I understand, time never runs out, it's just that 24hrs isn't enough for the one whole day. It never runs out, only lacks. There maybe times where one is too busy to mind everything around them. That sometimes, even when you had the time, you are still pre-occupied of what had happened during your busy days. You're distracted, because you have lots of things running into your mind. Yes, busy is the right word.

*Everyone receives rejection, but not all can accept that, which of course I know is irrational. You cannot get all the things you want. You sometimes need to be deprive to realize what you can't have. But it really sucks....

Literally, I'm deprived, and I hate rejection.

Jan 29, 2009
10:00 am

Guess I'll always be the bad girl. The one who never listens, the one who always starts the fight, the one who says the bad words, in short, the evil. Bad Girl, like what I've said. And I guess it'll always be till the end.

proven and tested boy! sabi ko na eh mauulit at mauulit din 'to. I just need a proof before para mapatunayan and here it goes, as my first line said, proven and tested. Hahaha para nga talagang sirang plaka, pag pinagpilitan mong i-play eh magiging paulit-ulit lang ang sound kaya wag mo nang pagtyagaan at maiinis ka lang. In my case? well, kelangan eh, malay natin may pag- asa pa naman maayos. Yun lang pano pag puro gasgas na yung cd? Itatapon na lang? Hmmm.... Pag-iisipan ko muna ng matagal yon. Basta, my only point is I'm positive na mauulit ito at nangyari na nga. How depressing.

Mag wi weekends na ulit. My plans? well...

* first of all, aalis na ulit dad ko and next year, March, sa graduation ng utol ko ulit ang balik niya. Gabi pa naman yung flight so gabi na rin alis namin dito para ihatid siya sa airport. Around 9pm probably.

* brood the next day. Wala pa naman talaga kong mga plano dahil unang una sa lahat, I'm one of those unlucky people na tinaman ng sakit. Not trangkaso naman. Cough and colds. Ang hirap. Ang lamig lamig pa sa ofis kaya sobrang kalbaryo pag pumapasok. Sakit sa ulo, hirap huminga, at most of all nakakahiya. para kong aso na kahol ng kahol at kulang nalang eh masinghot ko mga officemates ko. Ngayon ko naisip. Di pa talaga ready sa winter ang Pinas. Ganto pa nga lang ang dami ng nagkakasakit (I'm one of them!) Pano pa kaya pag umulan na ng yelo? Oh well, lumalayo na'ko. At yun nga, dahil sa aking sakit eh tinatamad akong maglalabas ng bahay.

*Lastly, maglulungkot lungkutan ulit ako this weekends. Why? Wala naman. May namimiss lang naman ako na matagal ko ng hindi nakikita. Last weekend pa yung promise nya pero dahil mabait na ko eh pinagbigyan ko siya. Ni hindi man lang ata pumasok sa isip nya dalawin ako. Nag- aantay pa ata ng millenium bago ulit kami magkita. Oooopps. Ang mag- react affected. Oo pinapatamaan talaga kita. haha. Bitter. Pero dahil nga sa mabait ako, pagbibigyan ko ulit siya. Bahala na siyang makahalata.

Sobrang lamig ng panahon. At least it helps para di tuluyang uminit ang ulo ko. Baka mapasma naman ako pag mainit ulo ko dito sa bahay tos paglabas ko sobrang lamig na panahon ang hahampas sakin di ba.

Chill Nelly. Relax. Kaya mo yan.

*Inhale. Exhale.* (mahirap, sinisipon ako eh)