hello

July 1, 2008
1:50pm

8hrs to go and I'm off to my second job as a call center agent. Geeesshh.. I don't know what to feel. Whether excited or nervous, I can't tell. But I can't also deny that I'm scared. So I'm going to start my job at 12am, you see, everyone's sleeping and as for me, my day's gonna start at that time! You can call me a vampire, but heck I'm really scared! Last night I was crying 'coz I'm thinking a lot of things that may happened. Apart from it, i'm gonna be leaving my mom in our house late at night alone. I've so loads of things to think about. I'm still a cry baby.

Wish me luck.... T_T

malungkot na nakakainis

keep it up. magandang gawain talaga yan. uunlad tayo sa ganyang gawain. hay nako...

namatayan ako ng pusa!! T_T

while watching lea salonga's concert or whatever you call it...

June 15, 2008
11:00pm

I have live 20 (soon to be 21 in the next 2 months) senseless years already, yet, still I can't figure out what my purpose of existence is. I feel like I'm one of those people who serves as a wallpaper only that I don't put too much of a decor, instead, an ugly art pasted on the oval cover of the earth. So I've been a daughter, who most of the time bring headaches to my parents, a sister, a friend who sometimes tolerate 'intolerable' acts, whether I've been a bad or good influence to my friends, I do not know and it's better not to ask them for it's for sure they'll say I'm the 'bestest' friend they ever had. Their loyalty will always be on me. haha. I've been a student, who inconsistently followed, broke, and make school rules, and whether I've learned a single lesson in my academic subjects, I know I have, it would be so thick of me wasting my tuition fee for nothing. I've also been and always be a citizen of my motherland. I am now a full time girlfriend. I served everyone with the best that I can, but still, I'm wondering what really is my purpose. Is it just simply making people close to my heart happy? Or is it something saintly? Like what Mother Theresa did during her living days. Or more deed that is far from what I've been doing. Hahaha this is just one those nights. My mind functions unusual at night. Oh well, I'm not the only one who experience the same way for sure. Funny, funny, funny.

Wish I could start my work now. I'm starting to gain weight alarmigly sonofagun! It's the long break that's to blame! harharhar


another non-sense blog of mine.
goodnight

(i'm missing soooo much things and a someone )

friday the 13th

June 13, 2008
11:25pm

In some ways, modesty helps to avoid conflicts. But how can you keep it if everything has already crossed its boundary and you just can't keep yourself from bursting. And you'll just hate yourself for the sudden outburst that caused another divergence resulting to a big dilemma. Both parties has their reasons, but they contradicts.

lifereallysucksattimesthatyoujusthavetobearwithitorelseyou'llliveasafulltimeloserbeingtauntforever!

say cheese!

June 10, 2008
11:07pm
Pasukan na ulit bukas. Yahu! Para sa ilan, pero para sa'kin, hinde! unang una, hindi na'ko estudyante, supposed to be eh sa trabaho dapat ako pumapasok, but unfortunately wala pa'ko nun. Pangalawa, naiinggit ako sa mga papasok kasi sila may baon ako wala. Pangatlo, ang pasukan eh nangangahulugan lang na magiging busy na ulit lahat ang mga estudyante, kasama na si Rawee (yihee!). Malungkot lang kasi busy na xa. Nasanay lang ako na ngayong bakasyon kahit di madalas nagkikita eh madalas naman kaming nakakapag-usap. Siguro etong first week ng pasukan eh di pa xa busy pero pagdating ng gitna ng sem eh malamang ganun na mangyari. Ngayon palang nalulungkot na'ko

Kanina magkausap kami, wala lang, naisip ko kahit madalas kami mag-away di ko pa rin kayang palagpasin yung araw na di kami mag-uusap. Kahit sa text lang. Eh kasi yun na lang naman yun pwede naming gawin kasi di naman kami madalas magkita. Kaya pag naiisip kong mababawasan na din ngayon ung text at mga tawag namin ang sad. Nasanay na'ko maxado na parang naging routine na ng buhay ko yun. Eto na nga siguro yung sinasabi ko sa dating post ko na pinaka mamimiss ko pagka graduate ko.

Hehehe di ko lang matiis na hindi isipin yun.

not worth of a title

June 5, 2008
10:25pm

Isn't it nice knowing you have someone who's always there for you not only when you need them but also at times you need not to ask them to be there for you. Isn't it sweet? It's the feeling that you are so well cared of and important.

Knowing you have always someone whom you can count on; someone whom you can hold hands when you feel scared of crossing the road full of mad and honking cars; someone who can tell you that everything's going to be alright even if you feel it's not; someone who can go with you to a parlor when you feel you want to get your nail or hair done; someone who is ready to face the world with you; someone who can make you cry but make you laugh afterwards; someone who can make corny jokes cornier but still you just don't know why you laugh at 'em; someone who can ride on a rollercoaster with you; someone who calls you at night just to say he miss you; someone who can understand that you have mood swings a week before your period; someone who can understand your mood swings even if you're not having your period, meaning he knows when you have/ had a bad day; someone who listens to your rants; someone who hugs you when he knows you're mad; someone who pats your back when you've done a good job; someone who does not get mad when you accidentally broke his most important possesion; someone who can assist you when you got drunk without getting mad at you; someone who can accept you for what you are; someone you can confide your secrets with; someone who equally shares his time between you and his friends; someone who brags you to his friends; someone who's proud showing you off to his friends; someone who's close to your friends; someone who doesn't hesitate to share his problems with you; someone who can't stand not seeing you for a long time because he misses you, even if you just parted 5 minutes ago; someone who can make you feel that you're prettiest girl in the world; someone who can make you feel the most loved person in the world; someone who can prove he loves you not just in words but in actions; someone who appreciates every little thing that you do for him, even if it means a piece of candy you gave him; someone who appreciates how much you care for him; someone you know who trusts you; and lastly, someone who knows how much you worth. Not just by saying it, but by proving it.

I'm happy for those people who found that someone I'm talking about. May they treasure every happy moments they have for it is very seldom nowadays to find that kind of person. So if you do, lucky you.