Get well soon

This is sad. He's sick and I can't even go to their house to take care of him. I can't visit him. This is worse than not seeing him when he's well. Saaaaddd.... Aside from missing him so much it is really a pain not being to take care of him when I know he's not feeling well. I can't stand this. If only I can visit him... But I can't. I can't take the risk 'coz this will lead to another problem. ='c i really dont know what to do. I'm really so worried bout him. My only way of communicating to him is through text but now that he's not feeling well and he needs more rest.... so sad so sad so sad so sad..... I am so bothered that I can't concentrate with whatever I do. I feel like I am an irresponsible girlfriend not being able to be there for him.

I'm really sorry. It's just that I don't want to put you into more trouble. You've had enough stress to deal with. And I can't bear to add some more to it by dropping you a visit. Hope you understand. If you just only knew how much I really want to be there for you... this is really saaaaddd.... I feel baaaddd.... Get well soon pangga. I love you so much!!!

just before i say goodnight

(I'm missing the not so old times..)

Things weren't the same as before. Hmmm... I have a short post of this issue on my multiply account, but still I just want to repost it here.

Something has changed. Or so it seems. Both parties I guess. I noticed a little coldness between us and I think it's been a while and only this day I realized that yeah something has really changed.

Think about this, we've been together for only few months and things weren't as the same as before (as I've said on the first part). Are we getting tired of the same routine everday? This is weird. And it scares me. He said he's not the type who can stay long on a particular activity or thing. In short, "mabilis tamarin". What if he's feeling that way on our relationship? Will he really lost his interest, passion, or even his patience to our relationship, or worst, to me? Are we able to last for more than a year if we've been acting like this on the early part of our relationship? We're still RAW.

Weird, weird.

Been asking myself lately, what if that happened? Now that I'm really depressed 'coz I was deprived by the employment world the chance to be involved for three times. I don't think I can handle more stress. This is really really weird.

Uh.. have I said weird enough?

April 18, 2008
10:55pm