Nothing Lasts Forever
Sept. 16, 2006
12:30am
I always thought that beautiful things remain unchange. It does not fade away. It does not disappear, does not end. It is constant. It has no limitations. I never thought that everything is destined to expire. To end. As I enjoy my daily activities in life, I never pause to reflect the past events of my life.
I've shared lots of laughs with my friends for three long years. Shared tears with them, been through fights, experienced things I never done before. In short, I was having th best time of my life! But little did I know that things will soon change.
As I'm writing this, two of my loveliest friends are now slowly parting themselves away from us. The five laughters that invade every place we are in, is now down into three. The laughter's still there, but not as loud as before. The happiness's still present, but not as happy as before. And it's really awful. I miss the old group. The old group that was composed of five lovely, happy-go-lucky ladies. I know that we have our own life to live and each one of us has our own private life that we can freely keep to ourselves. And I understand that. We are five different people with five different personalities.
Really, what am I trying to say?
I feel really bad about the fact that we started out as good friends, until we came to the point that we treat each other more than sisters, but now, we're on the verge of having separate ways. I don't know why we end up like this. Or maybe I knew too much reasons and I'm only denying it to myself. Which is which? No idea. I just felt bad.
If all things has its limitations, then from now on, I should be ready to accept that things will possibly change between me and my friends. I just can't understand why I don't feel that they are affected with what's happening to us. Are they really that numb? I hope not.
Call me selfish, sensitive or emotional. But i just love my friends. And I value our friendship more than anything else. Hope it's not too late to repair the damage. If there really was....
12:30am
I always thought that beautiful things remain unchange. It does not fade away. It does not disappear, does not end. It is constant. It has no limitations. I never thought that everything is destined to expire. To end. As I enjoy my daily activities in life, I never pause to reflect the past events of my life.
I've shared lots of laughs with my friends for three long years. Shared tears with them, been through fights, experienced things I never done before. In short, I was having th best time of my life! But little did I know that things will soon change.
As I'm writing this, two of my loveliest friends are now slowly parting themselves away from us. The five laughters that invade every place we are in, is now down into three. The laughter's still there, but not as loud as before. The happiness's still present, but not as happy as before. And it's really awful. I miss the old group. The old group that was composed of five lovely, happy-go-lucky ladies. I know that we have our own life to live and each one of us has our own private life that we can freely keep to ourselves. And I understand that. We are five different people with five different personalities.
Really, what am I trying to say?
I feel really bad about the fact that we started out as good friends, until we came to the point that we treat each other more than sisters, but now, we're on the verge of having separate ways. I don't know why we end up like this. Or maybe I knew too much reasons and I'm only denying it to myself. Which is which? No idea. I just felt bad.
If all things has its limitations, then from now on, I should be ready to accept that things will possibly change between me and my friends. I just can't understand why I don't feel that they are affected with what's happening to us. Are they really that numb? I hope not.
Call me selfish, sensitive or emotional. But i just love my friends. And I value our friendship more than anything else. Hope it's not too late to repair the damage. If there really was....
posted by Nelly at 9/16/2006 10:40:00 PM
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