Am I Happy Now?

Can you define the word loneliness? Is it being teary-eyed while listening to stupid love songs? Is it the feeling of being miserable? What? I dunno how to describe it but… that’s what I am feeling right now. Too bad because my birthday’s coming… but instead of being excited, I feel really, really bad. Everything that surrounds me is pale. I try to delineate my own experiences but I failed to get their meanings. Maybe I’m still having a hard time understanding life. I am always restrained in my own melancholic world where every sound is in note of sadness, it’s very agonizing.

I miss that someone who makes everything around me blissful. Will he come back? I don’t think so…


It is better to have loved and lost than never to have lost at all.
-Samuel Butler